Monday, May 17, 2010

no more bad news

Recently I have been hearing "bad news". One of my childhood friends thought they were in remission from cancer and it has returned with a vengeance. He is a young Daddy with three children. Another childhood friend of mine just had both of her breasts removed and she is enduring chemo treatments with shots into her stomach each day. Another friend's daughter and her husband are childless, with the deep longings of the heart to have a family. They just experienced a failed attempt. I know and understand this kind of loss. We struggled for 10 years to grow our family. I imagine I have a garden of babies waiting in Heaven to meet me. With life's sour and sweets, it's nice to dream, to escape into the whimsical possibilities. Our children are dreamers. They believe in the impossible; like flying away in a hot air balloon.Looking down on the earth below. Flying with the doves and doggies and having a magical griffin lead the way.Finding a castle and drifting down, hovering above the water and landing on the perfect lawn. The air smells of lilacs and roses.  Music fills our ears and the birds harmonize each step up to the ancient doors. The light is golden and warm. We feel like we've been here before. Is this home?All we have to do is knock and speak the secret word and the possibilities are endless.
Shh, the dreamers have arrived. Let us listen to what they have to say.


3 comments:

Tracy Nuskey Dodson said...

Lovely post and great pictures!!
Thanks for stopping by my blog:)
Tracy

Anonymous said...

Oh! I loved the photos of the castles and of that adorable 'flying' dog! So cute!
I did watch The Doctors show, the other day, and they mentioned a book titled "If at first you don't Conceive" by Dr. Schoolcraft. It sounded like a very intersting book. I wanted to post it here just in case others read the comments. You may want to post the title of the book in one of your next blog posts too.
love, your big sister

Rebecca said...

Thank you Trese! Another book that helped us is: Taking Charge of Your Fertility. It is chock full of good information and encourages involvement with the doctor instead of just trusting them to know everything. I guess that's why they call it "practicing medicine" right?! For us, it was years of learning and of course aligning our will with God's. I think He had a plan for us to adopt first and then have a successful pregnancy. So worth the difficult and painful journey! Our four children bless us beyond compare!